GodsPerfectTiming

Well first off I must see this has been one eventfull week for sure! After praying about it and putting all my thoughts into it I found the courage to call Tim and tell him how I felt. I told him it jst cannot work out and I need to move on. It was one of the hardest things I have had to do so far in this short life I have lived.  I honestly cried for about 3 days straight and thought I may have made the wrong choice. I still had feelings for him but I knew he was just not the man God had picked out for me.  BUT through patience and trust I have come to learn how much I really do need to put all my trust into the Lord.  A series of events has taken place in the past two days.

1- I met REL and Emma at Chipotle to get my mind of Tim. that was soo fun and I learned how great it is to have such awesome friends.

2- I decided firefighting just may not be the career I need and decided to resign from being a volunteer ff. (I honestly hated going to the fire station)

3- Resigning gave me the oppertunity to start going to Wed nights again.

4- It just so happened that this Wed night the Mohns spoke about relationships and what types of things you need and cannot have in relationships. This 100% perfectly cleared up all my doubts about ending my relationship with Tim. 

5- I got to go to lunch today with my mom at roadhouse grill. Turns out they are going to give me my job back. I now can stop worrying so much about money!!! YAY!!!

Just in these psat two days I have learned SOOOOO much about trusting and listening to God. I am in such awe right now how Gods timing is so perfect and how he knew this week would happen in my life way back before I was even created. He knew I would end things with Tim not sure if it was right and perfectly placed it in my heart to resign from the fire station, attend wed night and hear the Mohns speak. He also perfectly timed my getting my job back to perfectly fit in with all of this. So the stress of wondering if I was in the wrong relationship, the stress about a job and the stress about money problems can now all be relieved. and best of all I get to start helping with the jr. high more often and do more trips because im not tied down to training every wed night.

THANK YOU JESUS FOR EVERYTHING.

and thanks you friends for being so awesome.

FIRSTS

So I am currently in my first real relationship with a man.  It started out amazing, I thought he could be the perfect person. We both rode dirt bikes, loved to snowboard,, went to the lake to wakeboard, were both trying to be emts, met at church, etc. I honestly want to say I fell in love with him quite quickly. He was completly awesome and I couldnt ask for more. Then...he moved away to Fresno.  Long story short, the move is the main reason things have changed, and have changed for the worse. I know by the way he treats me (or lack thereof) and his carelessness to the relationship are only more clues to this not working out. I know I need to end this and I know thats probably whats the right thing to do. But theres something thats holding me back. This being my first relationship/love I am being very hesitant. I honestly think I am afraid of being single. Why? I have nooo idea. I have great friends and family who love me and why should I need a man in my life to make me happy? I couldnt answer that, all I know is I'm super afraid to lose him even though I know its not meant to be. I hope and pray to gain a life lesson and have a great learning experience after this, but for now....I need to find the courage to end things....Firsts are always the hardest.

Desert and Snow

Who would have thought snow would mix with desert. well in southern cali it does! I just got back from an awesome weekend riding with my family. It was snowing on the way there. But the next two days were absolutly amazing and clear.  Then this morning is started raining/snowing again. Just our luck to have perfect weather the two main days we were there! I went climbing tonight with Emma and Kevin. It was quite fun, we did belay the who time, perrrrty fun. 

Refreshing

After an awsesome night of climbing, I get jsut about 12 hours of full sleep. I have no idea how, my mom came in and woke me up at 10:45. Im so happy its a sun shiny day today, makes me happy. I finished one wall in my room and three walls left to finish on the paint. 

V2 Baby!

Today was a nice day. I went to Victoria Gardens with REL in the rain today. Her iPod is seriously a genius. I put it on all song shuffle, but 90% of the songs played were Anberlin. How awesome is that?!  I got two new shirts yay. We started small groups tonight. Theres two leaders...and 3 students. haha. After I went to threshhold to climb for a bit. I finally completed the v2 i have been working on. YAY I feel super acomplished.

The Cool Thing in Town

I have caved. I decided to make a blogspot. So, this is my blogspot. Yes my title is the name of a song by Underoath. Btw underoath is the definition of amazingness. Stay tuned and you just might read some life changing views....or not idk.